Had a sudden realization of my existence as I was lying down on my bed, pondering upon the things I need to do, but don’t want to. Wrapped inside a blanket, the last one awake, I couldn’t control my mind. So I closed my eyes.
I felt like I was just below Brooklyn bridge at night, with traffic noise above me, and the wind whistling loudly. Merely a second later, I was floating in a void with no sounds. Though I could hear my thoughts loud and clear, I chose to ignore them.
I can’t bear to listen to my own voice up there, rambling about everything and anything that comes to mind; it is a battlefield in which the war never ends. But hopefully it would. I just want peace and quiet for once, outside and inside. I want to be calm, of my surroundings and myself. I seek silence.
I quickly noticed how a series of thoughts could distract you for only a few seconds, yet it feels like a very long time. I opened my eyes, and I was back in my room, with a screeching sound from the air conditioner above me, and blowing its cold air loudly.
